SOUL FATE

when I first met her my thoughts were too scary

was the daughter of the woman I'm about to marry

thoughtful dark face, her hair flowed like a river

our eyes connected, my heart began to quiver

I have loved her mother through elation and tears

her daughter a goddess, very wise for her years

in an ocean of conflict, a tidal wave of fears

never had this feeling in all of my years

I sat silent and numbed at dinner that night

opposite both women, soft candlelight

the daughter was familiar, I was inside her mind

very thoughtful and beautiful, humorous and kind

deja vu is so trite but in this case so real

I loved her that instant, can't show what I feel

her daughter is home from State University

she loved it there and loved the diversity

my heart stopped for a moment, I must have turned white

“excuse me I'm sorry. It's been a long night”

“please show my daughter your medical center.

she wants to be a doctor, you could be her mentor”

her daughter so passionate, an irresistible lure

a boundless obsession, always fatal, no cure

at home the next day, I woke up with a fright

naked next to me, she was a magnificent sight

“I am in you and I'm marrying your mother.”

“we can't help ourselves, we adore each other.”

“I want you forever. I'm out of control.”

“I can't live without you, you are my soul.”

“my heart is aching, I can't go on like this.”

“I knew this was right, from the very first kiss.”

“we must tell her together, it is the only way”

“the scene will be ugly, what will we say?”

“so much pain and pleasure all at one time”

“no turning back we've crossed the line.”

her mother was crushed, she quickly disowned us

we wept in the park, raindrops flew around us

we married one day, we were crazy in love

I know it was right, she was sent from above

soon she became pregnant, our lives were complete

then there was news, she was white as a sheet

something went wrong, genetics they said

a baby deformed, it's what we had dread

blood tests were in order, first hers then mine

every tick of the clock seemed like mountains of time

they said we were wrong, should have never mated

we had no idea we were blood related

she was twenty, I was fifty, how could this be?

searching every leaf of my family tree

her mother heard the news, did research of her own

she had been artificially inseminated, single mother, all alone

she was inseminated at the hospital twenty years to this date

only one explanation for such a horrible fate

as a medical student I had donated sperm

I did it for money to get through the term

I married my daughter, our souls were alike

I knew it was wrong, too good to be right